a little messy

so...i know that some people are looking for a blog on the break-up with mr sunday.

and that somebody happens to be my sister :)

it will come.....

eventually....

but tonight it's still too raw.
it hurts too much.
my heart is in too many pieces.

and i'm not drunk enough to deal.

so tonight, i will attempt to eat. (although this has NOT gone well)
and i will drink.

captain morgan, how i love you.

seriously???

so, i've been hating on my job hardcore lately.

that hasn't changed.

but after some customers, i wonder why i'd ever give it up.

seriously, who gets this kind of free entertainment at work?

me: your account is in the negative $80.
him: how did that happen?
me: ::explained::
him: wow. is there anything you can do about it that? i mean, i can't have my check be short this week. i have to pay for a paternity test.

FML.

are you kidding?

man i love that part of my job! :P

my smart boy :)

quick one :)

we were at the big k tonight shopping for costumes (we left empty-handed. thank god the the internet & online shopping!!)

little beast decided he wants to be a skeleton. i'm good with that.

as he's looking at the array of costumes, he goes "i have a skeleton in my body mommy."

is it ironic that i just ordered a kid book about the body & its insides?

what a smart boy :)

ugh

so much to update, so little time.

well, i could make time.

just not right now.

i attempted to work out today.

it didn't go as well as i'd hoped.

ugh.

better luck tomorrow......or later tonight if i'm feeling really fat!

progress? or just politeness?

so.....

real posts are coming eventually. promise.

but here's a quick one...

today dad met mr sunday.

::sigh::

no idea how either really felt. and i'm dying to know!!

i was hoping it was progress.

but i think it may have just been politeness.

ugh.

really?

you know that stuff about if he brings you to it he'll bring you through it?

well he must think i'm a helluva stronger than i do.

how much more am i supposed to shoulder??

really?

really god??

the blondies are sleeping.

but i know 1 mama who won't be.

every noise scares the shit out of me.

the tears won't stop.

it'll be a sleepless night.

with lots of praying......

and questioning.