finally

although the divorce is NOT final....

i legally changed my last name today!!! i'm officially back to my maiden name. :D

now onto the pain in the ass process of changing it on EVERYTHING.

ugh.

nerd alert

just a quick update....

i got an A- on my other midterm.

i'm not at all happy about that minus part, but i'll take the A.

7 weeks to graduation!!

bragging...just for a sec

so, i started back to class today after spring break last week.....

at the end of brit lit, dr mc was ready to hand back our midterms. he said something to the effect of some grades were a little low...this is expected...this is the toughest test of the semester...some of you should come talk to me about it later......blahblahblah.

i thought the test was difficult when i took it & this chatter made me that much more worried about my grade.

he was handing them back....he called my name...but instead of just handing it back like the rest he opened it up first & looked at it. holy shit. what does THAT mean????

i opened it up.....

A+

oh it gets better!!

a little note that says "outstanding alison. best in the class."

WHAAAAAAAAAAT????

i haven't even ever opened my mouth in that class & i aced the midterm??? highest grade in the class???

GO ME!!!!

damn i'm smart!

ok, enough bragging now.

mr sunday & i are gonna celebrate this weekend :D

feel free to raise a glass too :P
(oh wait, he's 20. he can't! hahahahahaha)

happiness.....with a little closed-mindedness

so....those of you keeping up with my fb statuses lately might have noticed a little difference. they're typically happy....upbeat....excited. and that pretty much describes me right now. :D

so let's try to have a (mostly) happy post for a change!!

i've said before that i don't like to blog about my personal life. but ima do it right now anyway. :D

there's this boy....(now, i usually use the word boy anyway instead of man but it's actually semi-appropriate this time! :P) i met him about 18 months ago. and honestly, that 1st night, i couldn't stand him. young, loud, annoying. that's what i thought. a couple months ago we started talking a little more. nothing major. some texts here & there. lots of joking.

he graduated from BU & took a job in hburg (about 2 hours away). the night before he moved my bff (who happens to be his chick bff too) & i took him out for dinner to celebrate. we were sitting there talking and laughing and bam! it hit me. i was somehow, wildly interested in him.

i don't know what it was or what happened. but for the next couple weeks i couldn't stop thinking about him. 3 weeks ago we were texting, totally joking around as usual. he said something, & i said "well i AM single now." and he came back at me with "well then would you like to go out this weekend?"

WHAT?????
FREAL????

i said yes.....and then wondered if it was a joke. i mean, we'd never discussed it. and why in the hell would HE be interested in ME???

let's rewind. you wanna get to know him? go ahead....laugh. we laugh too.

for blog purposes, we're gonna call him mr sunday. (his name means "sun")

he's 20. i'm 28. yep.
he's too young to even really consider having a family. i come with 2 kids.
he's indian. i'm obviously not.

and this is where it gets messy. his parents would ideally like him with a nice, young indian girl....who doesn't bring 2 white, blonde-headed babies along!! i ended up coming clean to my mom about him. (matt told my dad i was with an ex 1 day. i told my mom i was with him, not an ex) my parents are incredibly closed-minded. i, obviously, am amazingly open-minded. so mom gave me hell first about dating while i'm "still married." hello? we've been separated for almost 9 months & are getting divorced. plus, our lawyers are all about us moving on & being with other people. and 2nd, because he's indian. she said "mr sunday....doesn't sound like he fits into our family. get rid of him."

excuse me?

because he's indian?
WOOOOOOOOOOOW.
but not surprised.

my mouth hung open & i walked out of the room. i was so flabbergasted i couldn't even say a word to defend him. so here we go.....

yes, he's 20. yes, he hasn't really thought about a family of his own. and yes, he's indian.
but at 20, he's already graduated from college with a bachelor's degree. hard working? uh, yeah. he has zero, YES ZERO, debt from school. he worked to put himself through school. his credit score is almost perfect. (yes, this is important to me!) he has a great job. he's stable, financially & emotionally. he's amazing with kids. he hasn't been around mine yet, obviously. but we've discussed the fact that i have an insta-family. and he's cool. we've had lots of talks about it. he treats me like a total princess.....opens doors, kisses my cheeks, is totally understanding & patient. oh, and he's tall, dark, & handsome. sweet lord is he attractive!

he makes me happy. period.

and you'd think that with all the shit in my life right now, my mom would be happy that i'm happy. but she's just not there yet. we won't even really discuss dad. i mean, he & matt are practically bffs....and daddy somehow still has hope we'll work things out. negative dad. sorry.

i don't know what the future holds. but if things keep going the way they are, i'd say he'll be around long enough to meet my family. i'm hoping they decide to focus on all the good. because honestly, there isn't anything negative. not yet anyway.

well, except that he DOES break out the dreaded M word every now & then.

MOM! :P

seriously, though, i'm happy. and if you ask me, it's about damn time.

i prayed the wrong prayer

so....a couple weeks ago M & i had a custody conference. it was the 2 of us, our 2 lawyers, & a special master (who really is just another lawyer). informal.

going in, i prayed that the special master would be fair.

CLEARLY this was the wrong prayer.

i lost primary physical custody because M's schedule allows him to have a ton of time with the kids. we now share joint custody.

ugh.

fuck me.

i just got the papers in the mail today. and i'll be appealing. i'm SO not ok with this situation....especially given M's mental state. (more on that some other day)

so, instead of being ready to end this whole thing quickly, we'll be heading in for more conferences & hearings. greeeeeat.

but it'll be worth every second, every penny, & every sleepless, worry-filled night.

but this time, i'll pray the right prayer.