Before I start, I know divorcing was absolutely the right decision. Period.
But there is no pain like seeing your ex-husband with his girlfriend....and her adorable blonde son......and your children......playing family.
Fuck.
I knew she was there. I thought I could handle it. But seeing what was supposed to be the future of my family, 3 gorgeous blondes, turned me into a heaping pile of runny mascara.
I know I'm not actually being replaced. Yet that's exactly what it feels like.
And fuck that hurts.
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xxoo - big hugs Ali. Big fat hugs.
been there, this is the part that sucks the most. i promise.
of all things i guarantee, you WILL get through this.
some day, an ordinary day, it's going to pop in your head out of the blue with no real significant trigger, that you've made it. you've made it past the highest hurdles, you've dipped your lowest valleys and while you're still riding the roller coaster such is life, you've made it through the twists & turns of the frightening unknowns. ...and dare i say, a slight smile will creep across that beautiful face? one that will trump the look of pain & despair you'd felt for so long? one that smugly tells you that, what is that, am i actually *happy*?
the best is yet to be. i promise.
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