a little lonely

so.....mr sunday left yesterday for the motherland.

saturday night was R.O.U.G.H.

yesterday was too.

and this morning.

you see, since we started dating we've talked every single day. there hasn't been a day when i haven't heard his voice. and although i didn't always spend time with him, i knew i could contact him. the past few weeks he's been in town & i've seen him almost every day.

so this is tough.

it's the little things. sure, i miss hugs & kisses. laughing. triple chocolate meltdowns with an extra scoop of ice cream & 2 spoons. and of course i miss hearing his voice. but it's the little tiny things.

i miss the good morning texts the most. the dumb pics we send. making stupid faces.

i'm not sure i really realized how important he'd become. or how tough this would be. but the more i'm with him the less i want to be apart.

i've dated a handful of guys since M & i split. but none has come even close to mr sunday. they were all great guys. but they weren't him.

today was tough....i found a job i'm very interested in trying to get. this is major because i've been really down about not finding anything. i couldn't text him or call him.

i had chemo today....couldn't text him to pass the time then either.

wanted to tell him something about his "brother." couldnt do that.

when the hell did he become so important? and when the hell did i become so dependent on texting? or texting him anyway??

idk.

i just know that june 23 can't possibly come soon enough so i can smile like this again